shud i or shudn't i

ermm. sure u guys da b0san read ab0ut me & my love life. hurmm. but then, i prefer to express it in writing than st0ry telling. s0, its like bedtime story for y0u guys. thanx f0r reading & expressing y0ur opinion & nver f0rget that u guys always advocate me. i l0ve y0u guys.

knape eh?knape die suke bg aku marah bile aku tgh ade m0od nak oke2 dgn die?
knape? am i that bad? am i that worst? hurmm. ive tried being the very best f0r him.
but then, whyy? why he doesn't even try t0 trust me? FYI, he never trusted me!
shiet. wtf i have a b0ifee like that? you kn0w what? i think he's the worst!
in the first place. he's the one that i shudn't believe at all. c0z he never ever care about my feelings.
i hate him. f0r now, i really hate him. what shud i d0 now. i kn0w i have friends. friends wh0 will be beside me that wh0 supports me. but then, its my l0ve life. i dunn0. plss. i felt like im dying. dying f0r i dunn0 h0w many times n0w. but i dun wanna leave my parents, siblings, families, & my bel0ved friends.
aku rase, kalau la die c0uple ngan gadis lain, & gadis tu dpt tau yg die ta penah skali pecaye gadis tu, aku rase, die da lame kne tinggal terk0ntang kanting.

hurm. shud i leave him? or shud i stay. but my heart says, "STAY!". my mind says, "JUST LET HIM GO!". which one then? hurmm.
hey! it hurts me when he successfully recall when he took his ex t0 a place. but then, he always f0rget if he ever br0ught me to certain place. even its his fav0urite place. that incident happens a year ago.
now i kn0w.his heart f0r wh0m actually. why am i being s0 loyal to him? why? it hurts me s0 much.
sayang, h0w c0uld y0u do this t0 me? h0w c0uld y0u? hurmm.

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hurmm. lagu nie sedey. haihh. what shud i d0 n0w?
k0rang tau aku sayang die sgt2. plsss.
temukan aku dgn org yg bt0l2 syg aku & pecaye aku.
plsss.
but st0p it!
i d0nt trust l0ve anym0re. d0nt let it get near me again.
i'm sick of itt.
hurmmm.